piecing together peace

So much has been happening in my life lately. I want to write, but I find myself at a loss for words to describe the upheaval that is taking place. So I turn mostly to other people's words and thoughts to explain it for me.


Why did you bring us out in the desert to starve to death? It would have been better if we had stayed in Egypt! --the Israelites in the desert, repeatedly, in many different places

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
so why am I 10 feet under and upside down
barely surviving has become my purpose
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

if I could just see you everything will be alright
if I see you the storminess will turn to light

and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be all right
i know everything will be all right --Lifehouse, "Storm"

When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll
Whatever my lot
Thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul --Horatio Spafford, "It is Well With My Soul"

As surely as the sun will rise, you’ll come to us
As surely as the dawn appears
You’ll come --Hillsong, "You'll Come", taken from Hosea 6:1-3

Maybe Adam and Eve threw a party when the sun came up
After they had experienced the first night and darkness ever --my friend Jess' class

Our God is the one Constant in the tossing waves and darkness. --my friend Hannah


It's more important what I'm retreating to, not from. --Hannah again


If there’s something I’m learning since I graduated, something I’m experiencing since I’ve moved across the country to be a Cali girl, it’s this:

When something upsetting happens,
and I have nothing to do, to occupy myself with, to distract myself with
or I have no one to call because our family plan has run out of minutes
so I can only call on nights and weekends
and by the time I reach 9pm everyone else is asleep far away in a different time zone

If there’s something I’m learning,
It’s that when the waves and darkness come, I need to fall hard on God, instead of anywhere or anyone else.

If there’s something I’m experiencing,
It’s that I can and will fall hard on God. And he will surely catch me when I fall.